Hello I’m oli and this blog consists of my attempts at dealing with my incredibly unstable emotional system.

I assume you’re here because you want to know a bit about me. So I guess I should start at the beginning. I’m seventeen and that’s just about the only thing I know for sure. I’m in love with the idea of love. I probably know next to nothing about the world but I do know that it is not always a place I want to be. I make art to escape from that, and through my art I can invent a place that isn’t so dark and scary and horribly real. I’ve learned the hard way that I am not cut out for reality.

I’m in love with words and the way they look on paper, and the way the right combination from the right person can make someone feel like everything is going to be okay. I look up to people who do their own thing no matter what. I’m always drawn to people that society deems to be “strange” because they always have the best stories to tell. I like to stay up late and think and draw and write down all the things in my head so they can have a nice home somewhere else and I don’t have to worry about them anymore.

I’m recovering from self harm and I’m not afraid to show my scars anymore. I’ve grown to appreciate having them there because they’re a constant reminder that I’m still alive. I made it through something I didn’t think I could get through. I’m trying to learn how to love myself.

I’d like to say thank you to everyone that’s ever sent me a kind message, your words mean more to me than you know. And to my friends, for being there for me when I’m at my darkest (which is often), I love you all so much more than you can imagine. And to everyone who has hurt me or made me feel anything but complete and total happiness, thank you for giving me a heavy heart from which I have managed to extract some of the most meaningful things I’ve ever created.

I’m thankful for every single person I’ve had the pleasure or misfortune of meeting. I wouldn’t have made it here without you.

* This is not my main blog, but if that’s where you would like to be you can find it here.

* Everything posted here is mine. That means I created it with my head and my hands so don’t even think about using any of this for your own benefit unless you have my permission.