Hello I’m oli and this blog consists of my attempts at dealing with the overwhelming pointlessness of life.
I create because I have to and because without it I am empty and worthless and sad.
I assume you’re here because you want to know a bit about me. So I guess I should start at the beginning. I live in Charlotte and I can’t wait to get the hell out. I’m eighteen and I’m in love with the idea of love. I probably know next to nothing about the world but I do know that it’s not always a place I want to be. I make art to escape from that by inventing a place on paper that isn’t so dark and scary and horribly real. I’ve learned the hard way that I’m not cut out for reality.
I’m recovering from depression and self harm and I’m not afraid of people seeing the scars anymore. I’ve grown to appreciate having them there because they’re a constant reminder that I’m still alive. I made it through something I didn’t think I could get through. I’m here, even when I don’t want to be, and I’m trying to learn how to love myself. I can proudly say I’m on my way up now.
I’d like to say thank you to everyone that’s ever sent me a kind message, your words mean more to me than you know. And to my friends, for being there for me when I’m at my darkest (which is often), I love you all so much more than you can imagine. And to everyone who has hurt me or made me feel anything but complete and total happiness, thank you for giving me a heavy heart from which I have managed to extract some of the most meaningful things I’ve ever created.
I’m thankful for every single person I’ve had the pleasure or misfortune of meeting. I wouldn’t have made it here without you.
* This is not my main blog, but if that’s where you would like to be you can find it here.
* Everything posted here is mine. That means I created it with my head and my hands so don’t even think about using any of this for your own benefit unless you have my permission.